Even during other depressive low points in my life, I was still able to have SOME joy briefly, even if it was for 5min- in stupid things like eating junk food, cakes, ice cream, etc. Now, not even food gives 5min of joy. And playing games at best distracts and keeps the mind numb.
No joy. Not even fleeting moments of happiness. Like zilch. Nothing.
Everything sucks when you have nothing to look forward to.
Life sucks. -_-